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Once again, this morning was a mess as we had to get to Kaiser so that Methuse can remove the staples from her C-section. As soon as we woke up, grabbed Calvin and headed to the bathroom for his bath. Since I warmed it prior, it wasn’t such a big deal when we got him into the water as it was nice and warm. That is how he likes it so that is how I’ll do it. This guy already has me in check! Dayam!
Then it was a mad rush to pack the diaper bag, powder, water, bottles, bibs, etc and run off. We normally don’t run late to appointments, but today we were a good 20 mins late. Luckily, it wasn’t a big deal and it only took 15 mins to remove the staples. Then we headed off to Babies R Us to exchange duplicate items from the baby shower and buy some milk bottles and misc things that helped in breastfeeding and such. Then it was back home to eat and sleep. I mean that is our life for the time being.
Later in the evening, I got a call from my mom. She was missing Calvin so much, I told her to come over for dinner so she can watch him. Alice got home from her business trip and she was tired and hungry as well. So I decided to cook some Japanese Curry with pork, beef and chunks of potato. This will fill any hunger! I think because I have been sleep and food deprived, I was noticing that my heart was skipping beats or something to that effect. My breathing was off and I felt exhausted. I knew I needed to eat more. So I asked Methuse to make me some cupcakes which was a red velvet and butter pecan mix. Yum yum!
As we watched the Angels game, there was really one person who stole the show. Calvin, the little boy who turned one week old today, all eyes were on him the whole night. The little things, they bring such joy. It is so strange, the love people can have for someone they just met. I have been feeling it since last week and now everyone else is feeling it. My mom tells me that my grandma and aunt have been having a hard time sleeping cause all they think about is Calvin. I know how much that sucks because when I am more than 5 minutes away, I miss him so much.
This boy loves to sleep! I know newborns are suppose to sleep but I think he loves it more than the average baby. One of my favorite moments is skin on skin bonding. The amazing nurses at Kaiser Fontana recommended it and I must admit, it is so calming having your own child fall asleep on your chest. The beat of my heart, the expanding of my lungs, well it puts him at ease and that puts me at ease. We must have napped for 3 hours. I wish I could sleep like that everyday… sigh LOL
Son, yesterday, you blew me away. You made me cry endlessly and stopped my heart cold. When I saw your face, I fell in love once again in my life. 9 months I thought about what you would look like and today, all my questions were answered in a second.
Around 4pm, your mom started pushing and pushing and even the doctor said that she was a great pusher. She pushed so hard that her face turned maroon but after 20 mins of intense pushing, your heart rate dropped below 40 BPM. Dr Wang said that she was going to perform an emergency C-section if that were to happen and at the drop of a hat, they wheeled your mom off to the O.R. My heart dropped in an instant but that was all second fiddle when the mad dash to the O.R. initiated.
The best way to explain it is “controlled chaos”. I keep telling people that nurses and doctors were coming out of every door, closet, hole in order to get to the O.R. As I chased your mom down the halls, Grandma and Grandpa Choi finally ended up finding us but under very stressful and frightening conditions. To add to the pressure, they were escorting your grandparents to the waiting room. Another nurse starts prepping me but by the time I get to the entrance of the O.R., they tell me to hold on for just a minute. I stood there while thoughts of every worse case scenario came into my mind. By the time they let me in, they had already pulled you out and I heard your voice for the first time. You made me tear up in an instant. “Congratulations! It’s a boy” they all shouted! When they heard that I didn’t know your sex, they all took a moment to say how amazing that was and how that is how things should be.
I finally made my way into the O.R. and the moment I did, they handed me a pair of surgical scissors to cut your umbilical cord and then I saw your face. I cannot recall what I thought the moment I saw you cause I had mixed emotions about your mom’s surgery. I could not see her or hear her and the thought that she was not there in your very first moments, well it made me very sad. Of course, I didn’t have my camera on me as I got lost in the shuffle. As funny as it sounds, the only camera I had on me was my iPhone and well, that was gonna have to be good enough. So I must have taken about 50 photos in just a few minutes before I had the opportunity to give you a kiss. After pissing on the nurse, getting I.D. tags, diapers and being weighed, I was able to finally take you to the recovery room where your mom was going to moved to.
After what seemed like an hour, your mom was wheeled in and I was able to see all the pain she was in. I have never seen your mom in that much pain. She is usually a trooper when it comes to holding her pain and it tore me up inside. In all her agonizing pain, I knew the one thing that would counter the pain was to see, feel and hear you close to her. This photo represents to me the entire day in a nutshell. To your mom and all the mom’s out there, you have my continued respect and thank you for doing what you do. Men would definitely crumble if we had to do anything near that. Thank you to all the doctors and nurses at Kaiser for your talent and skill and most of all, your love. It really shined through and thank you to my wife, you will never know how much I love you. Happy birthday my son.
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